Last Words

Mar. 7th, 2016 07:08 pm
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It has been a rough month since my dad passed. The funeral, the family issues, the constant driving to Bellingham. However, I am a very very lucky person, I got to speak to my dad as he was passing away.

There are no real lost words or expressions of love. We have always told each other that we love each other. While my childhood had a lot of problems with poverty and alcoholism, there was never a lack of love. That includes actually saying it and showing it, not just an “unacknowledged” understanding.

Jello and I were fortunate though. Jello was able to talk with him on the phone before my dad lost the ability to talk that way. I know Jello wished he could have made it up to see dad, but the surgery results wouldn’t let him travel that far.

I was fortunate as well. While I was up visiting my mom as she and the rest of my family watched over him in the last week. I went into the bedroom, hugged him, kissed his forehead and told him that Jello and I loved him.

As if from a zombie movie, his eyes shot open and focused on me. There was a bit of shock on my part, he had been unconscious all day, hadn’t really even responded to me earlier. He grabbed my head and lifted himself up to kiss me, hug me and tell me how much he loved Jello and myself and how proud he was of us.

We talked for a few minutes more, but he was so tired and exerting so much effort that I just laid beside him for a minute and told him it was ok. I was there. He went back to sleep.

That was the last time I talked to him. I know he woke up and talked a bit with the rest of my family, and when I came up the day before he passed I sat with him for hours holding his hand as he slept. He would respond if I told him I loved him by squeezing my hand. I probably could have pushed him to come up again, but he was finally resting, no pain, no trouble breathing and he was calm. So I just held his hand.

About Me

Apr. 22nd, 2015 06:42 am
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Welcome to my new blog. I figure I should start out about me. I am a 40+ your old white male in a wonderful marriage with the most stupendous guy you would ever meet (yes, that is same-sex marriage if that matters to you). He goes by Jello here, so if I write about someone named Jello, that's him.

I have always been a social justice warrior, being in a same-sex marriage just means I get to fight on the front lines. Don't think this doesn't mean I don't find women attractive, I guess I find everyone attractive. You will find I am not conservative in any aspect and that I am not conventionally religious as well.

I am geeky. I watch Doctor Who, science fiction, roleplaying games and of course video games. I love strategy, history and just about anything in that theme (video game, table top, old school chit games). I even have a Youtube "Let's Play" channel called "Second String General".

I also love science, history, art, and by profession I am an auditor with almost a decade of governmental auditing (different levels from local, state and federal). I worked in tax, I used to manage medical clinics and I just love learning things. For this I also have a youtube channel called "Things You Should Know". I run a lot of different series, ranging from Civil War battles, accounting, biographies and tax. I plan on expanding that as I go.

Oh, and I am starting a normal Youtube channel just person observations, etc that I will probably wrap into here as well.

You will see posts about all of these subjects, plus just personal observations and recipes.

I will update this about me more as time and personal desire allows, until then you will see random posts on everything.


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